Then again, how many times have I taken matters into my own hands instead of waiting on the Lord for His answer? Not that what I have done is as dramatic as ending my life, but it's the same concept or idea. I know there are countless times where I felt like the Lord wasn't answering or the Lord wasn't listening or I figured I knew how things would go anyway so I take steps/actions on my own. What I try to do on my own, is never ever as satisfying or as wonderful as the plans the Lord has for me and has planned out for me.
I also keep thinking about the difference in the death of someone who tries to save themselves from something: pain, hurt, confusion, pride, whatever by taking their life and the feelings of pain and sorrow and confusion that this causes in friends and family vs the death of our Savior who gave up His life so that His children could have eternal life and a life free from the bondage of sin. Hope and the joy results from His death, not pain and sorrow.
I want to reach out to Andy's sister. They went through a lot of trials in their young lives and this is another one for his sister to go through. Pray with me for them? Pray that the Lord will use this for good, as we know that he can.